junkyard
10-20-2010, 10:49 AM
Today is the day that i have been dreading for years, a good friend[one of my best] is putting his beloved dog to the eternal dirt nap. Dog in question is a fila/dane cross and has been amongnst our crew for ten years. It was the dog that made me change my mind about cross breeds and also the dog that made me love them protection dogs. lil has been the dog that made me look into the way different breeds act and i truly love the bitch. we dug a hole or her a few days ago for her and i was in tears from the start. i love this dog as much as its owner, sounds stupid but i feel a little guilty for my breed of choice we cannot have her here without issues , i know its not my fault but i still feel bad. During this dogs life i have culled out five plus dogs but this is the one that is killing me, different breed different job, and this fucker has prevented break ins and issues her whole life.
I feel like she is mine and as much as she is being put to sleep tommorow at 5pm she is sitting on my couch crying to me like she was my own.
This is the dog that made me love the fila breed from the start and she is the last of her kind down here as much as i know.
It took me two years for this dog to take me as her own but since then we have been family and besides my own dogs ive never loved a dog like i do this one, i have ALLWAYS been able to make the ultimate choice for the best reason but this time i am weak and its not even my dog. Due to the circumstances i have had her in my care for four days and its only made things worse, even as i type this she is whinging to me and its bringing me down to earth. Her owner is dealing with it his own way but i dont know if im getting soft but ive never ever acted this way with anything thats come through my yard.
I was a mess today and i dont know why, its been ages since i had to say goodbye in the flesh to a house dog but it has seriously shaken me up.
I wont say goodbye until the greendream kicks in but its gonna shake me up. i am the only person who can do the job and i am actually shitting myself to make sure it goes down smooth. I actually feel soft about doing the job and its shaken me up like i never expected is this normal? it dont feel it.
And laugh as you will this is the first night in along time where my own dog will sleep with me on my bed.
Not game to write RIP until it happens but i will be so very sorry to see her go.
I may post some pics up but i will wait for the owners permission first.
I feel like she is mine and as much as she is being put to sleep tommorow at 5pm she is sitting on my couch crying to me like she was my own.
This is the dog that made me love the fila breed from the start and she is the last of her kind down here as much as i know.
It took me two years for this dog to take me as her own but since then we have been family and besides my own dogs ive never loved a dog like i do this one, i have ALLWAYS been able to make the ultimate choice for the best reason but this time i am weak and its not even my dog. Due to the circumstances i have had her in my care for four days and its only made things worse, even as i type this she is whinging to me and its bringing me down to earth. Her owner is dealing with it his own way but i dont know if im getting soft but ive never ever acted this way with anything thats come through my yard.
I was a mess today and i dont know why, its been ages since i had to say goodbye in the flesh to a house dog but it has seriously shaken me up.
I wont say goodbye until the greendream kicks in but its gonna shake me up. i am the only person who can do the job and i am actually shitting myself to make sure it goes down smooth. I actually feel soft about doing the job and its shaken me up like i never expected is this normal? it dont feel it.
And laugh as you will this is the first night in along time where my own dog will sleep with me on my bed.
Not game to write RIP until it happens but i will be so very sorry to see her go.
I may post some pics up but i will wait for the owners permission first.